A stack of books that I intend to read during Dewey's 24-hour readathon

Long time no see

So I have been sort of absent for the past few weeks, and I am sorry for that! I just have not been feeling very good and have had to cut down on a lot of my daily activities. That unfortunately included my blog. I am not completely back yet, but I miss this and I have had so many ideas for blog posts, that have just faded away due to my inactivity. And it kills me! Because I really want to make this work and I really want to share my thoughts and bookish life with you guys!

So I hope to be able to pop in every once in a while and write a little something. Maybe work on some reviews too, but mostly I just need to get re-acquanted with running a blog and letting my inspiration unfold on these pages again. And I sincerely hope you will still be there, when I am back at full force – which is hopefully very soon!

That’s the beautiful of life isn’t it – even when it’s grey and horrible; Life is ever changing! We do not know what tomorrow brings. I am wishing for rays of sun. At the very least I am hoping the clouds may lift.

I know I do not give much explanation, but it is a very personal matter that has kept me away and I would like to keep it that way. At least for now. But see this as an apology and a promise that my silence is about to change!

I want to thank all of you who has stayed with me! All of those who still peeps in once in a while to see if there’s somehing new. You all make me want for a quick return a little bit more.

To begin a blog part II

Now my blog has been online for a few weeks and I have sort of settled as a blogger. I do this, because I want to. I do this for me. And I do this for all of you, who are interested in my thoughts on different books, issues, events and whatever else I could think important or interesting enough to share.

The blog experience so far

I have been through a variety of emotions in this very short time. First I was excited and scared. Then I published my blog and the fear was quickly substituted by joy and pride. Then after a little while I felt anxious: What if I didn’t post enough? What if I didn’t write the right things? And what if I made the wrong decision, when I chose to do this in English despite being a native Danish speaker?

Lately though, I have become more at ease with everything. I no longer have to remind myself, why I do this. It is like writing little bits of stories or writing small poems without the intention of actually showing someone. But if I do show someone, I don’t ask for their opinion, I only hope the enjoyed it.

reviewing

In the beginning the reviewing part was sort of difficult. Mostly because I didn’t know how to write without spoilers. I always knew I wouldn’t want to review by giving books stars or the likes. I am a student teacher, hopefully one day an actual teacher, who will need to put grades on my pupils. I hate that. I don’t think you can put a grade on a person. It’s not that I don’t think you can put a grade on a book, but like people books are so much more than the paper and ink. Books are so much more than the words printed on the page.  Books can change you. Books can change themselves. The first time you read something and the second or third or tenth time you read it, it may not be the same book or story. Because you changed. I know my reviews are still a product of my thoughts at a specific time, but I still like to make them without the firm system of stars or other.

I start out with a quick summary or  teaser (in the instances where a summary will be too revealing). After that comes a section of my thoughts on the book and at the end of these I tell you who I think would benefit from reading the book. Sometimes it will be very specific, but mostly it will be something along the lines of: “those who enjoy….”

what can the future bring?

I strive to post once a week, but I must admit that some weeks are straight up crazy-busy! Hopefully, I will become better at finding my writing voice. I still struggle a little, because I want you to take me seriously, but also I don’t want to hide away who I am. And I am a little crazy – just so you know.

I have always loved writing and I am wondering if I should sometimes post the things I write. My poems. My ‘scenes’. I never write entire stories; I only write excerpts. Small scenes. I read something in the newspaper, I dream something or I see something in the world and my mind goes crazy making up ideas for this specific thing or person. But not long stories. I do not care for the long stories in the stuff I write. I care for the sensations in that exact moment. So maybe you will get to experience that part of me.

Girl in the woods, holding a book

To begin a blog

I have probably already welcomed you, but then I will just do it again: I am so thrilled that you have decided to drop by my blog and I hope you like it!

the beginning

I want to share with you some of the thoughts, fears and victories I have had while creating this book blog. Mostly because I at first thought, that having a blog was something that demanded I possessed some magical skills. Well, maybe not magical, but I was very much star struck by any other book blogger I would come across on the Internet, and thought that what they did, I could never do. I certainly thought that without an education within the field of literature, information science or the likes, I was not cut out to be a book blogger, and even if I tried I would crash and burn.

I say this, because there may be some of my site’s visitors, who secretly want to start a blog as well. It doesn’t have to be books, it could be anything, and I want you to know, that it can be done!

In October 2016 I actually started this blog. I bought a domain and began writing about the books I had read in several word documents, but it never seemed right. I never came up with something I actually wanted to share. At the same time I also started a bookstagram account on Instagram, which was a much better experience for me. Being online was never something I cared much about, and I guess, that that was what prevented me from truly starting the blog back in October. So I eased into it with Instagram.

Instagram

Instagram was fun. I remember hitting 17 followers and being full of joy that so many people actually cared about what I did (or at least cared enough to follow me). I remember hitting 56 followers and being all ecstatic over the number. From there it suddenly moved fast and I still cannot quite fathom that I have surpassed 300 followers. 300 people, who are interested in knowing what I put up! Of course some of those are of the “141” mentality (follow for follow), and they might not care at all what I put up, but I believe that most are genuinely interested. I know I am, whenever I choose to follow someone.

After a few months, I had gotten more used to being online and actively sharing thoughts and opinions, and thus I decided to begin working on my blog again. I was (and am) still scared that I might crash and burn: That I will realise that running a blog is too much work – too time consuming, or maybe even too boring. But I also know, that right now I really want to do this! I want to share my thoughts, ideas, opinions and experiences with you, and that’s what really matters.

the blog

I am, and always have been, technologically challenged. You can almost say, that I repel technology. Buying the domain was easy enough. Finding and installing a theme was harder. Making the theme fit what I had envisioned was problematic and I could not have done so without help. Luckily opposites attract, and it just so happens that my boyfriend works with multimedia. He could then help guide me through plugins and widgets and all those things I never knew existed. And so now, I am no longer scared of ruining something when I log in without him sitting next to me.

My goal was to create a blog that wasn’t too girly, but still didn’t look all minimalist, white and sterile. I am a colourful person, and I wanted the site to show that site of me. I am also a very disorganised person, and I really didn’t want the site to show that site of me. Cue, my very organised boyfriend to the rescue. I probably could have done this all by myself, but the result would not have been as pleasing as this.

I am not saying you need to know some multimedia specialist if you want to start your own blog. What I am saying is: A little help can go a long way.

Support

As I mentioned earlier, I was afraid to crash and burn with this project, and so I didn’t share my dreams with many friends or family. Looking back, I am not sure I would recommend doing that. It made me feel safe and comfortable, because if I failed, only a few would know. However, I think that their support and talents are something worth appreciating and can be put to good use. I used my boyfriend a lot. “Does this look good?”, “Would another colour work better here?”, “How do I create a new blog page?”, “I don’t like this feature – can it be removed?” and most importantly: “Will you please read this and tell me if I should correct anything.”

cherryblossomreads

To all of you, who made it down this far in the post: This is me. This is my blog. Shaped and censored to fit the online community, yet very honest and personal. It is my hope to some day be more personal. To share myself. Completely. Okay, not completely – I was just inspired by a quote from Fight Club. Words will do that to you. Creep under your skin. Live there and take control. And we often love that feeling. That feeling is what creates the worst, most prominent book hangovers. It is almost addictive. That feeling is the reason I read.

Wish me luck. Or don’t. I am beyond excited to finally be doing this! And that is what truly matters.